Sooooo I couldn’t handle the jandal (that’s a sandal, flip flop, thong for non-kiwi-slang people) and am moving back to Auckland on Tuesday.
The loneliness was the killer. I had the best guy in the whole damn universe with me at last, but I realised – I didn’t need him. Stress need. My friends, my family, my life of a dancer in Auckland – I did need that. So in a crazy emotion fuelled evening I stood in my room, absolutely sick with the thought I’d have to stay there another day. So I just started packing. No plan, nothing, just threw everything I owned into my suitcase, dropped my keys in the landlord’s letterbox, and hopped on a bus into the city. I cried to my mum on the phone saying I needed to come home, so she got me a ticket to return on Tuesday. I could stay with her friend until then.
You see, I thought Pepe would be so disappointed in me I didn’t really consider that he might be okay with it. Turns out he was okay, sad, maybe even disappointed, but only because we’d go back to long distance. To be honest that is fine by me!! I can so do long distance again, at least for the next month, hehe!
When/if I come back, I will be armed with the memory of my experiences last time. I will have enough savings for regular flights back for visits, and hopefully that will stave off my loneliness.
I’m so excited. I get to go back to my dance studio. I get to dance with my dance partner, and my favourite male stripper, again. I get to see my little sister turn 13. I get to spend Christmas and New Year’s and my 20th birthday in the biggest city in the country, when all my friends will be home, and it will be fucking awesome!
Oh and on a different note, I’m very proud of America for choosing Obama as their next president. This one just feels right, ya know? I watched his speech at some godforsaken hour on Wednesday morning and cried a bit. I’m not even patriotic to my own country let alone the USA, but I could feel the incredible, incredible joy and hope and pride and excitement in that stadium and it gave me chills, goosebumps, tears. Congratulations Barack Obama!
New Zealand’s election is this Saturday. I’m voting for Labour and our current prime minister Helen Clark because she is tops and a babe (among other reasons of course 
) but sadly I am pretty sure the conservative party National is going to win. Oh well, I’ll do what I can to stop that bastard John Key getting into power.
Molly is very happy.
1 Comment
November 11, 2008 at 12:12 pm
I’m glad you’re heading back home!
It’s good to see you happy. Good on you for looking out for yourself.
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